You Can't Look Back

Time passes and moments are gone. You can remember the good forever, but no more. We tend to look back at the recent or the far removed and wish with all that we are to just go back one more time for one more day. Please, let us have that again.

​It's so easy to get stuck. Living in bliss and delirium was all you needed for a day or a weekend, but then you had to get back to the life you left and it doesn't feel like enough anymore. It's probably not. 

The daze settles in from the exhaustion of traveling and you immediately step back into what you have always done. Only this time, you think of every step you take and wonder why it doesn't feel as good as where you came from. You go to work and remember people and places and it's takes all of you not to get up towards the past.

This can ruin you. Maybe your life isn't good enough. Maybe this isn't where you're supposed to be because your soul doesn't feel as full as it did in your temporary heaven. Maybe it's time to start chasing that feeling and look forward to the uneasiness because at least you had that love for a while.

You can't look back and wish forever. As you go through life, you'll miss it less and less until all you feel is a dull ache when you think about it for too long. It feels so good to hurt because something was so good. Look back over your shoulder for a second, but don't turn around and stop in your tracks. It's too much.