The Action Challenge: No Mirrors

In my room alone, I have closet doors that are made entirely of mirrors. I also have a sink with a slightly smaller mirror above it.

Yesterday's feat for The Action Challenge was to not look in the mirror. Needless to say, I would have to be very engaged in not doing so.

This is what I wrote in my journal after I finished getting ready:

I  love looking at myself in the mirror. Not because I'm vain (I don't wear makeup for goodness sake), but because I have to remind myself to love who I am.

As a photographer, I can make myself look better than what I see in the mirror. Because I do take pictures of myself and because I am a woman subjected to this society, it's really important for me to take time to look in the mirror.

This morning, it was really hard not to take a peek. It felt like I was ignoring myself. The person in the mirror felt unwanted and unloved.

I understand the concept of fighting against vanity, I just never thought of looking in the mirror as my vanity.

This is not to say that I'm giving up. I'm a fighter, even against myself. I just wish I didn't hurt this much.

As the day went on and I was away from mirrors, it became less difficult. When I had to get ready for the art show openings at Azusa Pacific University was when the feelings of neglecting myself came back.

Throughout the day, I caught my reflection in windows and in cars, but I averted my eyes. I didn't want to, but I did.

I am in complete agreement that vanity is a huge issue that is ruining the world and as uncomfortable as it made me, I am also grateful that my own personal vanity was challenged. Nothing worth doing is supposed to feel nice and comfortable.

P.S. It's not too late to sign up for The Action Challenge.