Josie's Journal Journey: The First

          The first journal I ever filled up in the way that I still continue to do, I received my senior year of high school from someone very important to me. It was thick and flimsy with empty pages calling my name. I started writing in journals during the hardest part of my life and that was when I realized that writing was what I was missing in my life. To say that I need to write to survive might be a stretch, but not by much. 
          My first journal is hard for me to look at because it's terribly unorganized. I didn't use the same system that I use now and it's full of arbitrary lists. Most of all, it's hard for me to read what I was thinking and what I was feeling because I am a totally different person now. I'm an adult, dammit. 
          Despite the fact that it was hard, I did it anyway. These are the best things that I came across, both funny and not. Enjoy.

• -Isms: "Ask me no question and I'll tell you no lies." - Harry Potter, 18 June 2013
• I guess I had a fear of writing on the backs of pages because there were plenty that were left blank.
• Short stories were abundant, but too embarrassing to share.
• In Love: "Things are sweeter when they're lost. I know because once I wanted something and got it. It was the only thing I ever wanted, and when I got it, it turned to dust in my hand." - F. Scott Fitzgerald
• Adventures/Firsts: BAPTIZED - 9 June 2013
• During my senior year, I had an annual pass to Disneyland. In my journal, I wrote down detailed instructions on how to get there on the bus. It came in handy.
• There were a few pages dedicated to planning out my first tattoo. It's a simple cross, so I don't understand why that was necessary. 
• Misc. "What happens when the little girl stops being scared of shadows? She becomes scared of herself."
• Misc. "Eighteen year old refugee with nowhere to be, spreading the good news to others like me."
• Sermon: James 5:11, 21 July 2013
  • "When we do something wrong, we're not the only ones to suffer the consequences."
  • "I am the master of the words unsaid and a slave to the words that should have remained unsaid."
• Eins: "You could change the whole universe, and everyday you do."

          This is just the first half of my incredibly embarrassing first journal. If I ever work up the nerve to type out the second half, I'll let you know. Until then, try not to make too much fun of me or I'll dig up some dirt on you.