I don’t want to be loved forever. It’s not about always or eternity for me. Think of tomorrow and plan it out in your mind, then live the day and see it unfold as something completely apart and wholey different from what you thought it would be yesterday. There’s nothing about forever that we can ever really know or plan for because they only exist as abstract ideas. Theories that you can’t prove until you get there and once you get there, you have to start from square one, everyday. You can’t say tomorrow is for certain. You can’t say your love with be there waiting when the sun decides not to come up. Always and eternity don’t exist. I don’t want to be loved in their non-existence.
Love me now, right this second. Love me in a minute, in an hour. Love me tomorrow and the next day because it just happens that way. Love me because you thought of me and in that instant remembered that you want me in your life. Choose to love me every second of every day and try not to stop that cycle as you go through and live in it. Just don’t say you’ll love me forever because now we both know it’s not real.
Have you ever thought about where you were and where you are now? Thought about the people you’ve loved and the people that you don’t love anymore? Being either one of those two types of people is fine by me. The past is like the future in the not being real right this instant, but the difference lies in that the past was once real and the future never will be. If love was there in the before, it was probably sweet, no matter how devastating the ending and that’s all I need. Moments of love, whether they continue or not. Love me for a moment, even if you decide to leave me or I decide to leave you in the next.
Remembering love is more noble than planning for love. You can’t come up with a blueprint for the person you want to choose. They are and they will always be who they are regardless of the feelings you attach to them. Love isn’t making them yours through molds and figures, it’s letting them be just as they are. It’s about their present and your present and losing the future you want in order to focus on the present. Love is dying because we want to map it out and traverse it like a mountain instead of letting the river it is guide our flow. There is no plan so good that will make something that can’t happen come into existence. When forever doesn’t exist, love can thrive.